*NOTE* On retrospect, I don’t really treat Seng Henk like shit.
This day is ultimately the most amazing, most super duper shocking one, and it’s only been what? 3 months?
1. OK, I know there’s going to be some flak for me mentioning this, BUT…
I KISSED GIA.
Yes, my lips touched his skin. During PE, during Captain’s Ball, his arm shot up to intercept the ball. But as Kevyna and Shah can attest, Gia is overenthusiastic about EVERYTHING to the point of being annoying and so he slapped his arm forward.
That resulted IN MY LIPS TOUCHING HIS FUCKING ARM. (Louis and Troy, you guys know, you were there.)
Like, oh my effing goodness can?! My lips have never touched something so foul and unbelievably disgusting before.
I actually immediately declared myself unfit to play and went to wash my mouth seven times over. And then later during Physics tutorial, when I got one of the physics questions wrong and I announced the answer thinking it was correct, Gia was the FIRST (yes, FUCKING FIRST) to turn to me and made this weird hacking sound with his eyes bugged out, which we all assumed to be laughter.
(From hereon it becomes something like the now-defunct BITCH Files.)
I honestly, honestly believe Gia is a proper human being. I really doubt his retardation, especially since his GPA is quite high. But frankly speaking, I COMPLETELY SEE NO CAUSE FOR HIS ACTING (and I believe he is acting). Earlier in the day, already Mdm Lim scolded him during PW for his stupid mumbling to himself when he is supposed to be presenting.
He was mumbling. Not speaking in an accent, which is different, but purposely bending his head low and speaking to an ant on his hand.
To quote John Paul, “It’s not funny.”
He has freaked Kevyna out during joint-PE, also because of his retarded overenthusiasm until he oversteps the personal boundary and physical contacts others. He has annoyed me, particularly, to no end because honestly, even if you would want to act like an idiot for the good part of your schooling life (to fool others into underestimating you), why would you want to act it until OTHERS find you a complete and stupid brainless git?! As an actor myself I find it completely senseless.
Audrey and I were sitting behind him during Econs tutorial, and we had never smelled a scent (stench) like it before. Oily, and foul, and so unbelievably gross. It was sickening.
Isn’t it for personal good and hygiene and cleanliness that YOU BATHE CONSTANTLY?
I mean, come on, for the first part, one might find it interesting (in a Ripley’s-BION way) that he only bathes once a week, but it gets stale fast, and it stinks (literally). Plus you won’t believe the amount of dandruff he collects ON his head (literally too). You would think that someone who is a scholar would have a decent level of independence and self-respect that you wouldn’t degrade yourself to THIS level.
I mean, you could be a joker, you could be a cold, heartless bitch, you could be a full-out mugger and overachiever, but at the very least you don’t overstep others’ personal space and you bathe and you do things PROPERLY.
The more I type, the more worked-up I am. It’s utterly unbelievable. I still can’t believe he’s in my class. If it wasn’t for Leonard, Shi Hui, James, Ru Yun, Wan Lin, Kevyna, Rita, Michelle, Zhixin, Rui Yong and all the other decent people in my class I would have just switched off, regardless of my combination. It’s just so much to have to deal with him, especially when I am extremely certain he is just playing a role. Trying to be unique, maybe?
Moving on.
2. I was late today. I can’t believe how utterly ineffective the roads outside RJC are.
For all that we pay the school, or at least for taxes to the Government (capital G please, it’s all the rage nowadays) they couldn’t even create some sort of alleviation to the traffic congestion that has been around for SO DAMN LONG?
I don’t know if I got white slip or not, but Chinks told me lateness is just a warning or something. White slips have to be issued by teachers physically or something.
3. I really disappointed myself and KQ and John Paul and Zhenxiao today. Even with all of KQ’s pep talk and Zhenxiao’s annoying but super helpful (really!) encouragements I still didn’t manage to finish off the Sprint-Jog sets properly.
Running’s a bitch (it’s my worst component) so I was quite furious with myself. Have you ever been mad at yourself? It’s not a good feeling. Today, for me, was just so tiring and so, so bad (though it could have been worse).
4. I just thought of something quite scary/weird.
What if one day, Gia were to come into school with two guns (highly unlikely) and start firing off into LT2 during that boring Thermophysics lecture?
And he would go all emo, and complain, “Oh, you rich bitches, you evil, bullying creatures who don’t have hearts, so you deserve to die, etc etc.” And he’ll probably send a tape to Mediacorp before blowing his own brains out.
Then I would say, “You bring it upon yourself. You act that way, you be all antisocial, and low-EQ, and completely deranged and distant from everyone else, that if we treat you the way we treat you now, it’s because you deserve it.”
And I think it’s the same case with the Virginia Tech case and other shootings in the US. These complete losers spend everyday being antisocial, being all weird, not bathing and probably indulging in weird acts like putting magnifying glasses on ants and watching them burn.
Can you blame others for making fun of them? For the hierachy in how social orders work, and for how others treat them?
Don’t come making some shit about how you’re being treated unfairly, etc etc.
Cho Seung Hui should have seen that treatment coming, from the way he was writing sick poems in his Literature class.
What I’m trying to say is, YOU BROUGHT IT UPON YOURSELF. Don’t go shooting other people or blaming others for what you have done to yourself. And this is not just to Gia.
This is to all low-level losers who think they can bring guns into class and let loose because “My life sucks”.
I don’t practise Maths consistently, so my Maths sucks.
Consequences come with everything, and now that we’re in JC, we have to learn to bear them.
It’s a phase of growing up. And if you can’t deal with that, well then, sorry, go jump off a building or something, instead of taking it out on people who are truly innocent.
Those are consequences, baby. Bear with them.
